Soo, I’ve been extremely quiet on here and I feel guilty about it so I thought I would let you all know why I have slowed down & why everything will be back to normal soon. I do have some pre written posts so you might see these over the next couple of days but if nothing is published them you will know why. I started this blog over three months ago and really got into the swing of posting regularly, or as regularly as someone with a full time job can until last Tuesday I went to the doctors because I had been having panic attacks.
My first one was 2 years ago now but over the last 6 months they have started becoming more & more regular to the point where I decided that speaking to a doctor was the best option. I explained that I wasn’t having them every day but when I wasn’t I was feeling very anxious, snappy and not wanting to do anything in case it made me feel this way. I guess I knew before I went that he would diagnose me with anxiety after reading up on panic attacks on the Internet but I still doubted myself. I spoke to my boyfriend about how I was feeling as I had experienced the anxious feeling for a very long time and I was wondering if it was normal to feel this way and he said that he didn’t so I should probably go and see what they say.
So fast forward to this morning and I have been taking Sertraline and Propanolol for two weeks, I have an appointment to review this medication after work today and I am feeling more positive. I can go a couple of days without feeling anxious and I have only had 2 panic attacks (I think ? I don’t tend to count them, but looking back I can only remember two) so whether this is the tablets or the fact that I am trying desperately to take care of myself more I don’t really know. I am trying to walk more and get it into the fresh air, for anyone who knows me will know that I am a hermit. I love my bed and I love being inside. I am eating better to try to see if that works and I have minimised my to do list each day down to working, walking and eating well, anything else done on a given day is a bonus.
I’d love to hear from people in the same boat because it is scary and it is difficult to talk to people who haven’t experienced it, they don’t seem to understand much but then again I’m not very good at explaining it. Once again, I’m sorry for the lack of posts but I promise once I find a pattern I can settle into without stressing myself out I’ll let you all know.